A strange and unusual feeling.

Something happened to me recently.
My brain turned back on,
But I have some worries:
Why was it off?
How long has it been?
Where's the switch and why was it flipped?

I feel like I'm 12 again.
It used to feel like I was smartest when I was in Fourth Grade.
It was a sharp decline.

And I had this issue;
It's that I don't feel the need to write when I'm feeling good.
There's no need to exhale.
Just one long breath that never runs out.

So now, I embark on a new task.
How am I,
When I'm feeling happy.
I think I can use that word now.
I'm boldly going.