This sucks.

I was going to write a list of the things my students probably think about me.
I was going to talk about how people probably perceive me here.
But to be honest, it's me.
I'm making poor choices.
I'm judging people more.
I see a big truck drive by, and I hate it.
I used to be nicer.  Not really nice, not free of judgement.
But better.
And now, now that I've achieved my goal, of teaching.
It's still not good enough.
The moneys not.
The hours aren't.
I'm not active in the way I want.
I don't have friends here.
I'm not attracted to anyone I meet here.
Nobody shares my interests.
It's probably hard for you to believe.
"Oh, you'll meet someone you get along with."
Well, actually, you know what?
You don't live here.  You don't know.
This,
Sucks.